June 24 2005

Musical Baton

Mo passed me this a while ago, but this whole Jordan trip thing made me postpone replying to it till now, so here are my answers 🙂

Total volume of music files on my computer:
Well, there are 2 computers:
At work: I can’t download or exchange songs, and there are limits to what I can upload, so now I have only: 300 MB
At home: which is basically my husband’s, and since he’s obsessed with music I don’t even want to think of what size his music files are 😀
The last CD I bought was:
Hanin’s latest Album.
Song playing right now:
none 😉
Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
1. 7ayra: Amrou Rafi.
2. Ba3dak ya hawa: Marwan Khouri.
3. I will survive.
4. Innocent Eyes: Delta Godrem
5. Leave Right now: Will Young

Five people to whom I’m passing the baton:
MMM, Eve, Roba, Rayhane, Drako.

June 21 2005

Big, Big Girl, In A Big, Big World…

3 weeks flew by so quick that I don’t really feel I’ve ever went to Amman this year…
Just like yesterday we were all gathered in formal dresses and suits filled with joy watching our beloved brother take the first step in his new life beside his beautiful bride!
I can still hear the music, smell the white flowers, feel the warm tears, and taste the bless of being gathered in such a lovely occasion: the day my brother got married!
How can I describe the smiles on our faces, or explain the beating hearts we carried every step of the way; from the minute he got all dressed up, till the minute he said goodbye and left!
It’s weird how a simple thing like watching our brother dance with his bride, could load us all with this mixture of countless kinds of feelings!
Our happiness cannot be put into words, God Bless Him and His wife, and may He grant them joy, good health and success in their life together!

This visit to Jordan made me know how fragile my heart has become!
I remember when I was a kid I used to hear old people say: “the older you get, the stronger you become”. I’ve seen many prove them right, my mom being one of the people I admire for the strength she has to carry on with her life despite all problems and heartaches she’s been through, and is constantly experiencing.
Yet when it comes to me, I have to admit it, the older I get, the harder it becomes for me to lockup my tears when they’re about to escape. There are times when I feel I’m about to get a heart attack right where I’m standing while saying goodbye with a big fake smile on my face !

I’ve been to the airport a number of times in this visit, and I just remembered how I’ve always loved going to airports when I was a little girl. I thought of it as a lovely place where I could see many people and eat yummy things. As I grew up, my love for airports grew stronger, I still enjoyed going there to pick up or drop people, and I just loved it when I’d accidentally run into people I knew, and then say: what a small world!
Now it all changed, I don’t hate airports, but I hate what they stand for in my new dictionary of life… airport: the one place on earth that’s able to make you feel how damn big this “small world” really is…

I already miss everyone, I missed them before I said goodbye, I missed them the day I realized I’ll be away soon… I missed them since the day I arrived and said: here I am…

June 3 2005

Will Not Vote…

Well, where do I start, I’ve been getting many many shocks ever since I arrived, will come to that later when I have the time to write. Anyway, I’ve been sick for the past few days, and couldn’t really follow up on my favorite blogs, but today I came across this Jordan Planet quality thing which was discussed a while ago, and to cut it short, it seems the final decision was to go for a general voting, something I’ve already disagreed on strongly, so I’m not voting, simply because by voting I’ll give myself the right to help keep or dismiss someone for what they blog, a right no one has, because I believe that a blog is a reflection of a person’s mentality, interests, profession and field of education, not a satisfaction for what some readers like to read.
What I like might mean nothing to what others like, what I hate, might be something others just love, so it’s so unfair to give myself the right to vote someone in or out.

And just one thing I thought I’d remind all those reading this post, we as Arabs will never ever improve or have real democracy if we can’t‎ implement democracy and respect for others in something as simple as blogging. Yes, democracy is to allow all to say what they wish to say as long as they mean no harm, as long as they don’t cross the lines of tolerance and politeness, and as long as they are reaching out for the world in a most peaceful and respectful way.
But limiting the participation of some bloggers according to the opinions of some others is so unfair, and is no not democratic. Suggesting that some “low quality” posts will give a bad impression about the Planet as a whole, plays no role for me, looking at other bloggers gatherings, like Tunisie Blogs, Lebanon Bloggers Forum, Bahrain Bloggers and many others, I can’t but say they are a living example for successful bloggers gatherings, a proof that you can have good quality no matter how many the bloggers are, no matter how the posts look and no matter what people reading their blogs think of the variations. I truly respect them all, and congratulate them for their great work.

For now, all I can say is, if members of the Jordan Planet will insist on voting some bloggers out and not allowing new Jordanians to join the Planet, then I believe that it will no longer deserve the name Jordan Planet neither its slogan: A Blog Readers’ Window To Jordan, because a window to Jordan, is a window to all kinds of thinking, all kinds of writing, a true reflection of the Jordanian community, not what some people would think are the “elite”… if the “elite” remains, then what different are we than those whom we criticize for giving themselves the right to choose for us and to control our concept of participation in society. Therefore, I have to say that I personally think it’ll become meaningless to be a member of it.

I truly hope that what I’m saying will not be taken personally, I’m not against anyone, I’m just against the idea of discriminating between bloggers.

Having said all that, we’re staying in Jordan till June 19th, I still wish to meet ALL Jordanian bloggers regardless of this whole voting thing, so whether you’ll still be a Jordan Planet member or not, let’s meet, taking the time to write in your blog, paying the effort to run a blog, is enough for me whether I like what you write or not. I know the period isn’t that perfect due to the university exams, but I hope I’ll get the chance to meet all who are in Jordan while I’m still here.

Good luck to all…

May 31 2005

From Jordan With Love :)

I know I haven’t blogged for a while, neither did I comment on other blogs, but well, as many of you already know, we are now in Jordan. It was kind of a last minute thing, we had no time to plan well, we went through a very hectic period to make it to Jordan exactly one day before my brother’s wedding.
So you can imagine how tired I am. Frankly, ever since we arrived to Jordan and I feel drugged. It’s as if I didn’t sleep for years, I wake up, eat and eat, then sleep and so on. Hope I’ll get my energy back soon.

Anyway, Jordan is as beautiful as always, although I couldn’t help noticing the unbelievable increase in buildings, almost all areas are now built… it became really crowded now, but it’s still beautiful as always.
This visit I felt attached more than ever to Amman, and I truly miss it even while I’m in it…
To make things worse, I miss Tunis as well, what shall I do with myself? Commit suicide or what? I feel I have more than one home, which is great, until you suffer missing one home while you’re in the other… it’s such a torturing feeling…

Now let me go grab something very yummy to eat, and I can tell you I’ll end up looking like a hippopotamus by the time I go to Tunis 😀

I’ll stop here, will write later, I really can’t wait to meet all Jordanian bloggers in person.

May 24 2005

Driving In Jordan ;)

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I found this hilarious 😀

Actually driving in Jordan isn’t that bad compared to other places. I mean from my personal experience I can say that it’s all a matter of getting used to the driving atmosphere.
For example, my German co-workers in Amman used to always complain about the way people drive in Amman, some even gave up driving, but others got used to Amman and are now driving normally.
Also when I came to Tunisia, I was like: no way I’d EVER drive a car in this country, but look at me now, I can drive, it took a while till I got familiar with the new place, streets, and manual gear, but finally I did it. Yet they tell me that in Libya driving is crazy! Just like I’ve always seen Cairo and Damascus as hopeless cases, but I know that if I spend more time in any place, with a little bit of courage, I’d get used to the driving norms there and things will be just fine.

Of course that doesn’t mean that we –in most of the Arab countries- suck big time in following the rules when it comes to driving, but things are always becoming better. New methods are being applied to improve the way we react to driving rules, to guarantee a safer, more enjoyable ride 🙂

May 21 2005

If I Could Be

MMM passed me this really interesting list of occupations. The thing is, you choose at least 5 of any of the occupations and say what you’d do if you were in these occupations. Afterwards you could add more items to the list and pass it to another 3 bloggers.

Here is the list:
If you could be a scientist // If you could be a farmer
If you could be a musician // If you could be a doctor
If you could be a painter // If you could be a gardener
If you could be a missionary // If you could be a chef
If you could be an architect // If you could be a linguist
If you could be a psychologist // If you could be a librarian
If you could be an athlete // If you could be a lawyer
If you could be an innkeeper // If you could be a professor
If you could be a writer // If you could be a backup dancer
If you could be a llama-rider // If you could be a bonnie pirate
If you could be a midget stripper // If you could be a proctologist
If you could be a TV-Chat Show host // If you could be a pariah
If you could be an actor // If you could be a judge
If you could be a Jedi // If you could be a mob boss
If you could be a backup singer // If you could be a CEO
If you could be a movie reviewer // If you could be a monkey’s uncle
If you could be a bible archaeologist //If you could be a househusband
If you could be a lifeguard //If you could be a comic artist
If you could be a stockbroker//If you could be a travel writer
If you could be a food reviewer //If you could be a politician
If you could be a male underwear model //If you could be a fashion designer
If you could be a game designer // If [Reader] could be a dog-trainer
If you could be a Transformer // If you could be a computer virus
If you could be a porn star // If you could be another blogger
If you could be a grain of sand // If you could be a fly on a wall

My choices:
– If I could be a fashion designer, I’d show the world that you don’t have to walk almost naked to be stylish, elegant and look good!
– If I could be a chef, I’d make a revolution and wear a 5 cm. cooking hat 🙂
– If I could be a doctor, I’d have at least 2 hours a day free of charge for the poor people.
– If I could be a grain of sand, I’d jump into the eye of everyone who’s bad to me and keep jumping inside till their eyes are too irritated to see anything 😀
– If I could be a judge, I’d support justice and lawyers defending true victims no matter how corrupted the environment I’m in would be.
– If I could be a monkey’s uncle (wait, I’m a female!) so if I could be a monkey’s aunt, I’d certainly kill myself 😛

To whom should I pass it? Well, I’m too lazy to choose, so, you read it, if you like it, go ahead and share us your choices 😉

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May 6 2005

My Birthday!

So today is my Birthday! What do people do on their birthdays? Some party all night long, some eat as much yummy things as possible, some meet up with friends… There’s no limit to what people could do to celebrate such a day.
Personally I’d love to gather with my loved ones, I’d definitely love to get some presents, but I’m totally against making this day a burden. I hate to know people did the impossible to afford a gift I would like, I hate to know people are making up excuses just to avoid showing up on this particular day because they can’t afford a gift!
But I guess birthdays, just like many other social occasions, have become more of a tradition. In our busy lifestyles, we have created certain occasions to remind us of our loved ones, or to remind us of the rights of certain people and so on… So these occasions became part of us, we grew up accustomed to celebrating them, and here we are now, not only celebrating, but even making it a nightmare for others to celebrate with us!
This is not what I love to happen on my birthday. On my birthday I love to think, relax, take a walk in a breathtaking spot, do nothing but enjoy the simple blesses of life…
Every year on my birthday, I can’t help but try to picture my family the day I was born, how was it like! What feelings did my parents have when they first held me?! How did my brother and sister feel when they first saw me? How was it like to watch me grow bit by bit? How did they think I would be in the future? Did they ever see me living away?
Another thing I think of every birthday: my accomplishments! I guess it’s no secret that my career life sucks, not because my job is bad, but because it’s not for me. I need to help people. And although I never stopped looking for a job that fits my preferences, I never found it. My current job might be the dream of many, but not mine, it’s just so not like me, I just need to draw a smile on a person’s face every day… I’m doing my best, but I’d do much better if it was my full time job! As for my social life, it wont get better if I don’t adjust my lifestyle as soon as possible. But I’m working on it. Yep, less TV, healthier food, more moving. And I wont give up till I have the perfect lifestyle I deserve!

I should be thinking of my birthday gifts, frankly I am, lol! I’m thinking because I love to know what people think I would like, what they think would suit my personality, it’s just like seeing yourself in the eyes of others, and I don’t mean their financial value, mean the concept.
I’ll be celebrating with my great husband and in-laws. Couldn’t miss my family more on this day, it’s awkward to celebrate the day I was born without the ones who witnessed my birth… for 3 years in a row…
Anyway, in case you’re wondering how old I am, I’m 18 😀 Oh, I find it really ridiculous to hide one’s age! We all grow old, and we are who we are, pretending to be younger/ older doesn’t change a thing, so I can proudly say I’m 27 years old 🙂
Thank you God for the life you’ve given me, would do my best to become a better person. Thank you my family for everything you’ve done and still doing, I miss you so much, can’t wait to be with you, thank you my in-laws for making me feel at home, and last but not least, thanks to my amazing husband who is always making me happy despite all the pressure he’s under…
(I feel like I’ve just won an Oscar :P)
By the way, here’s what my birth date means, in case you’re interested 🙂

Your Birthdate: May 6
A birthday on the 6th of the month adds a tone of responsibility, helpfulness, and understanding to your natural inclinations.

Those born on the sixth are more apt to be open and honest with everyone, and more caring about family and friends, too.
This is a number associated with responsibility and caring – this birthday lends a degree of concern for others.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Via: SubzeroBlue

March 28 2005

The Tennis Dance ;)

The weather is perfect, sunny, slight cool breeze, calm… simply beautiful. Loads of work to do, got used to that, so there’s actually no problem. The only thing annoying me is the pain I feel in my legs, wrest and arm.

Yesterday, my husband and I decided to put an end to our lazy lifestyle, which –thanks to him and the weird weather- we’ve been sticking to for a long long time 😀 So we decided to go out for a friendly tennis match. Taken by the beauty of the place and the adorable weather, we forgot all about our lazy muscles that should be warmed up gradually, and started our match right away. Our match, which –at times- couldn’t have been more aggressive, lol!
MMM was hitting as strong and fast as possible, throwing the ball high up in the sky making me suffer to catch it! But the revengeful me did all the unprofessional, so unfriendly, so bad-mannered-tennis-player tactics hitting the ball in the opposite corners of where MMM is standing making him run across the whole court 😛 soon enough he started using the same tactic, then we got back to our peaceful selves, playing a decent game.
A short while later, I got in this hysterical state, laughing my head off every time one of us misses the ball. Later on, I got this really stupid reaction: fear! So instead of hitting back the ball, I either ran away from it, or twisted around it, or –when the ball is high- I’d lean back to escape it… and believe me there were times when I looked as if I were ballet-dancing rather than playing… ah I was terrible.
In the final stage, I got really really hungry, started picturing French fries, and fatty food, cold coke…etc. Then I was too tired to chase the ball or gather the ones spread all over the place. And before we knew it, our time was over, we went home fresh, happy, active, and things were great.
Today I’m in pain and feel lazier than ever 😛

But who cares, it was real fun 🙂

March 25 2005

12 Words That Describe Me The Most

Again, another great inspiration by Subzero Blue:
1.Impatient: I’m restless, hate waiting, can’t wait to solve a problem, or to see the results of my work, or to reach my goals. And when my patience runs out, I could get really nervous.
2.Talkative: yep, I talk a lot, but don’t worry, I know when to respect myself and stop 😀
3.Self-Confident: I really don’t care what others think or say. I believe in who I am, whoever dislikes it can simply bite me 😉
4.Good Listener: people feel I’m so trustful that they open up to me from the 1st time.
5.Modest: I never show off, I consider myself a down- to-earth person, try to be as natural as possible. I can’t tolerate someone feeling less than me for any reason whatsoever.
6.Stubborn: I admit being very stubborn, it takes a lot of effort, patience and smartness to convince me of something I see wrong!
7.Threatening: don’t know why many people in different fields of life think I’m a threat to their own presence/performance, so they start challenging me and competing with me even though I’d be in a whole different world!
8.Hesitant: I hesitate a lot when I need to make a decision, I just have to think of everything, all side-effects, all consequences, even if the decision wasn’t that serious.
9.Loyal: no matter what happens, I can never ever betray someone or stab them in the back.
10.Independent: I just hate being dependant, I need to know how to do everything on my own, but if someone wants to help out or pamper me, they’re more than welcome.
11.Kind: I love helping others, defending the weak (when they’re right) and I’m generous to the extent that bothers my MMM 😉
12.Strong: thank God, I’m always strong even in the hardest times, I think it’s because I’m an optimist.

March 11 2005

Because Today Is…

Today, what a lovely special day it is. It’s the day this veeeeery special person was brought into life to light it all up and give my existence a great new meaning and fill my heart with love…

Yes, just like today, 26 years ago, a little baby cry broke the silence, and announced the birth of the greatest, most loving and caring person, who blessed my life with the most wonderful and successful marriage any couple would wish for…

I wanted to dedicate a poem on this occasion, I searched the net for hours and hours, and I found many beautiful ones, but honestly, nothing could compete with the power of a true: I LOVE YOU, coming straight from my heart…

Happy Birthday MMM, may all your days be joyful, successful and beautiful, and may all your wishes come true. I’m glad we’re together, and I thank God for this. … I can see a great future ahead of us, I hope you see our future as bright as I so…(and make sure I’m in it all the way long ;D)

God Bless You!