Yesterday my brother and his wife were blessed with the birth of their first baby, whom they named Laith; a beautiful Arabic male name that means lion.
Congrats Bro!
God bless and protect you and your little family.
I can’t really express the happiness I feel right now but I can express the overwhelming sadness for being too far away and not being able to share my family those good moments.
Needless to say that I still have no idea how my new nephew looks like, and I can’t wait to be sent a pic of him.
And of course I can’t speak of Laith and not mention my 2 other adorable nephews Mohammed and Omar, whom I miss like hell…

Today my husband left to Paris on a business trip. As happy as I am for him, I can’t help feeling so lonely.
This is the second time he travels after the birth of Adam, who decides to get sick every time daddy leaves! few days before my husband’s trip to Manchester, Adam had to catch cold! Now, only a couple of days before the Paris trip, he gets seriously sick.

At 8, Adam fell asleep, I put him in his bed and decided to watch some TV till I feel sleepy. At around 9 he woke up -really angry- and started crying and coughing. After giving him his medicine he went to sleep, only to wake up 15 minutes later -really hungry- crying and screaming. After taking his milk he went back to sleep. I got extremely sleepy, but I put him next to me in our room this time, and just like that, I fell asleep. 15 minutes later, a tiny hand slapping my face wakes me up, Adam’s nose is bothering him. After getting it cleaned up we both fell asleep. 20 minutes later I feel this weird thing grabbing my throat… it was Adam again, he was grabbing my throat and twisting its skin, lol. Turns out he woke up because of the coughing and couldn’t get back to sleep, so decided to “play” with my throat!
After waking up several times I couldn’t get back to sleep anymore…you must know this annoying feeling when you’re tired and sleepy but you can neither sleep nor do anything else, so you end up staring at anything like a retard! this is what I was going through before deciding to write this post.

Anyway, if I don’t rest well I wont be able to take care of Adam, so I need to force myself to sleep… after reading a bit maybe!

Sweet dreams everyone.

As a mom, that is…

After spending hours and hours trying to get Adam to stop crying, we both collapsed and fell asleep… the sudden silence at home got my husband curious and worried, that’s when he came to find us asleep on the couch, and decided to take this photo of both of us.

Today marks our 4th wedding anniversary. Every year is as special as the one before, if not even more, only this year will definitely be the most special one we’d ever celebrate, for this year witnessed the arrival of our most precious addition to our little family: our baby boy, Adam.

It’s true what people always say: have a baby and your life will change for ever. Yes, our life has changed and will never be the same again. We have many new responsibilities to take care of, and many decisions to make. The longest period of time we get to sleep is 2-3 hours. Our thinking revolves around nothing but our son, as if nobody else exists, as if nothing else in the world really matters any more… scary? yep, exhausting? sure, having a baby is the only scary and exhausting thing you’d ever love and not mind the time nor the effort you’re paying for. Sounds crazy, right? we used to think the same, but it’s only when you experience it personally that you’d understand this delicious taste of sleepless nights, and this joy in wasting hours and hours staring -with your red tired eyes- at a little human being who can’t even see you clearly nor know who you actually are!
No matter how many babies you’ve seen and spent time with, it’s only your own that will make you act crazy as if you’ve never seen a baby before, as if you’ve never seen a smile before, as if you’ve never heard a voice before, as if your baby is the only creature that moves its hands or legs, as if you’re the only one who has ever had a baby in history!
And the most wonderful thing a parent ever feels is this sudden sense of responsibility, this feeling that only now your life actually has a purpose, and for this reason you’d do your best to fulfil this purpose the right way, believing in yourself and your abilities in making a difference in the world by raising your child the best way you could.

Having Adam is such a bliss, the most beautiful gift from God, for whom we’re so thankful.

I hope we’d be the good parents our Adam deserves to have and wish he’d finally realize that a mom and a dad are two people full of love to offer, and not only 2 creatures who show up every time he cries for food or changing!

And to my dear husband: I would never wish for my life to be any different, and can’t imagine it without you in it… having you by my side to share this life together is all what I’d ever wish for. You’ve been a great husband and I’m sure you’ll be the best father as well… thanks for the great 4 years, and I hope that the coming years will be filled with great surprises and more happy events…love you!
P.s. Thanks to every one of you who has called or emailed or visited us, and special thanks goes to Christian, who doesn’t know me nor my husband, but still celebrated the arrival of our son to this world.
And for the curios ones of you who are wondering how does Adam look like, until we publish a picture of him, I can tell you he looks a lot like daddy, in fact he’s a little MMM with a little bit of me

It’s been over a month and half since I’ve been trapped in bed, first in hospital and now at home.
I truly miss going out, and sometimes I look through the window and wish if I can go for a walk just for a few minutes.
But knowing that the heat outside is unbearable, helped me feel better about staying in bed one way or the other.

2 days ago, while I was reading, I heard this chilling sound of rain drops, knocking at the window and quenching the thirst of the dry streets. It was only 3-5 minutes, I enjoyed just staring at the window, but I must admit that deep inside I truly felt like an immediate walk. I adore walking in the rain… the light tickling kind of rain that is.
Today, to make things even worse, the weather outside is cloudy yet not gloomy, with this cool refreshing breeze, occasional light raining, and the sounds of different kinds of birds filling the skies. Extremely tempting! I really feel like going out, walking a bit, just a little bit, feeling the breeze against my skin, and filling my lungs with fresh air.

But I know that’s impossible, not before another month at least. So I have to surrender to the sad fact that until then, it’s gonna be only me, with books, DVD’s, a laptop, and the crazy little birds in their nest next to my window, who check on me every once in a while and give me this weird birdie look as if I’m some kind of a beast trapped in one big glass cage …

I would like to thank every one who has left me a comment on my blog, or emailed me, or contacted my husband to check on my health and show concern and support.
I truly appreciate knowing that there are people who care about me even though we knew each other recently, or as it is in many cases, that we didn’t even meet.
It’s true I didn’t have access to the internet while staying in the hospital, but my husband printed out all your comments and emails for me to read, and I must say it really helped me through that difficult time.
The weeks I have stayed in hospital felt like ages, and I felt like the loneliest creature on the face of this planet.
Thank God for having writers, God knows how I’d have killed the long hours if there were no good books to read.

Anyway, I’m getting better, I was supposed to stay in the hospital an extra month or two, but fortunately I was able to get a permit to leave hospital and stay at home.
I’m not allowed to move around or do anything I wasn’t allowed to do back in hospital, but I’m telling you, being home makes the whole difference.

I’ll do my best to keep this blog alive, but I hope you’d understand the lack of update.

This is a quick one just to let you know I’m fine.

A lot has been going in my life lately that I really had no time to even come near the laptop! Till today, I had no idea whatsoever about the comments left on my blog, nor the emails sent to me. But I hope this is the last long period of no-contact with the online world. How does it feel? it sucks, and I can’t imagine I’ve managed to stay away from my blog that long! what really got on my nerves though is the amount of SPAM I got while away, more than 100 spam comments, God I hate spam and the ones who invented it, and the ones who enjoy using it!

Anyway, gotta go now, will be back soon, and MANY THANKS to every single one who left me a comment, or sent me an email, or contacted my husband to ask how I was doing, I really appreciate it so much and wish you’re all doing great. 

The last few weeks have been literally a disaster!
I got horribly sick, couldn’t even make it to work for a while, I was all in pain, even my eyes hurt, so I didn’t check my emails in ages, and I apologize if I didn’t reply to emails sent to me, hopefully will look into them very soon.
Obviously I haven’t blogged for a while either, because I had no energy at all, and didn’t even come near the laptop, so today when I checked my blog I found many comments awaiting moderation and finally they’re all showing, sorry for the delay.

Aside from my annoying winter sickness, I had to make some serious decisions in my life, since I have made up my mind to make this year a year of positive change on all levels, and hopefully I’ll enjoy a more relaxed, creative and successful lifestyle.

It just struck me how difficult and harsh life actually is. I mean, knowing what you want is something, and having it is something totally different.
Thinking of a decision is something, and taking this decision is a whole different story…many things get in the way, many things are to be taken into consideration, many risks pop up out of nowhere, so that when you reach that point in your life where you actually take a step forward, the simple step you took feels like a huge leap into your better future; your future that results from the decisions you make; make none, and you’ll get nothing in your future but moments of regret for slipping opportunities you had to make important decisions that could change your whole life…It all begins with the first decision you make!
As Robyn Davidson said: “The two important things I did learn were that you are as powerful and strong as you allow yourself to be, and that the most difficult part of any endeavour is taking the first step, making the first decision.”